They Keep Calling

My deepest fear is not about them
My darkest fantasy is not to condemn
I have been here before. 
They keep calling 
and I keep falling

My deepest fear is not to loose somebody 
but to loose myself while loving them 
I deny every aspect of jealousy
but it builds great enmity
My jealousy keeps calling
and I keep falling

My egotistical ways make me fumble 
and too blind to be humble 
Many thoughts in me which are not real
It makes me shiver and I know it's surreal 
Can't control my thoughts 
Couldn't bother 
But to wonder 
If my egos were really bought
I have been there before
and victims always befall
My ego keeps calling 
and I keep falling

Lust, I haven't been myself lately
Entangled in chains for many years
my soul screams for freedom and reality 
but it blooms great seldom fantasy
Lust begets fear
Lust begets sorrow
but for him who is free of lust 
has no fear and sorrow. 
Love, lately I have giving my all 
and it's risky because I know I can fall
Easy to love blindly
and easy to hate greatly 
It's true that there a thin 
line between love and hate
and I wish I could set my life straight
Love and lust keep calling 
and I keep falling 

My mind is really distorted
and I know I will never be comforted
It's hard to explain yourself
When the thoughts in your mind 
don't even make sense to you

Promises, lately I have given too much
Promise me that within me you can find hope
Come quick because I have many ropes
and you don't want to find 
me hanging on the olive branch

Come quick before I fall
Come quick before they call.

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